So you got your heart broke right? The pain you felt was unlike any other? Did you question your worth? You used up your heartbreak free card pass and now it hurts. Pain is inescapable. That pain is definitely something to be scared of. The feeling you used to yearn for is now what you hate.
At first, you think you're protecting yourself and you feel liberated. You put up walls and swear to never let someone break you like that again. You think putting up these boundaries between yourself and others is the key. AHA that's it you've smashed it. You found the secret to living a happy, pain-free life. Then slowly the emptiness seeps in. You notice that you're head and your heart are no longer working together. They no longer have the same goal. Your head is still in primal protection mode and your heart, your precious heart that has so much love to give yearns to share it with another.
The thing about feelings you see is, is that if you cut out one emotion it will be very difficult to feel anything. If you try cutting out pain and fear, happiness and hope and will still evade you. Every single emotion is interlinked. We were all made to feel, to love. You see fear is a bad mentor. You feel as if it's protecting you when actually it's keeping you from great opportunities and experiences.
Becoming vulnerable. This is one reason why many people fear falling in love. To become vulnerable and for someone to see you exactly, just as you are. No mask, to share your dreams and inner thoughts with. To become vulnerable to someone you share nothing more than a feeling for is terrifying. But for them to be able to love you deeply it is very necessary.
Please don't be scared to love again. Associate pain with the person, not the feeling. Do not deprive yourself of it, for love is just a primal instinct. An emotion just as basic and at the same time as complex as fear. Allow yourself to be loved. Not just by you, but by people who deserve to have you in there life. Surround yourself with those who accept and love you just as you are and don't expect anything less or more than yourself.
Right now it feels like you'll never find anyone, That person to share every mundane detail of life with. Believe me, you will. Don't go searching for it. Just live, love and at the right time, the universe will give you what you need. You might get your heart broke again but that's ok and life will have taught you another lesson. One that you needed.
All those nights crying will have been worth it, those moments of self-doubt and hatred for heart eyed couples. One day, sometime. You'll find someone. It may only last for a short while or for a lifetime. But it'll make you question why you were ever afraid to love in the first place.
Thanks for reading, Stay safe.
Lots of love, Amy x
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